I feel deeply depressed… I just want to crawl up in my bed and stay there for days. I feel tired and sad and desperate. I wishe I could just let go of everything and go away… far away… where only silence could be my witness, and only the wind would caress my face… Tied up, no choices left for my sake... Never to do what I want but what I must do... Duty... the damn duty of the lawful good that little by little consumes the will and life itself... Where is the reward? Where is rest? Where is happiness and joy? It is all but a long walk that takes you deeper into the pits of Hell... And bury you with insanity and hopelessness...
I wish freedom would ring... I wish for peace and stillness... I wish for warmth and hope...
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