Just being pissed

Hmmm... Actually I haven't been so upset for quite a while... And it is completely school-related. I'm giving it beyond 100 and seems the teacher hates my job. I'm definitively NOT feeling the love... Didn't login today to see if the feeling gets a bit mellow... This reminds me of the 2003 drama with the plagiarism that wasnt because the teacher didnt believe a puertorican could actually use so many "deep" words... I remember back then that made me quit the game design thing as it got me too upset. It was insulting. And the experience now made me feel exactly the same way... but I need 2 more classes to finish, so I'm trying to focus on just doing the assignments, and reserving my points of view. You know when you are not loved. And I just want to finish.

The show goes on

Still, some things upset the balance... I expected support for the counseling degree, which I did not get... I can't apply without the letters of recommendation, and I dont get why in blazes it would be a conflict of interest doing them while I am in family leave... Very different things, but hey... PR somos todos... what else could I expect?

Same thing goes with the adoption idea. We have to wait so we get aettled what will happen with the temporary rent aid in December... if we get an extension is for the same amount of time of what we have now... i dont get it... How come irresponsible leeches get to do this without oppossition, and us... doing it to help, get a slam in the face without appraising our specific situation... It is sickening. I was appalled, outraged... And bothered because we ended up getting the same patronizing behaviour as if we were kids who doesn't know what we want...

And even school gave me a slight headache as they had not asked renewal of the loan for studying... I almost got a stroke with that one, but it was solved fast enough.

Cherry of the sunday? The freelance job that i wanted to begin 3 weeks ago, and which i have been trying to contact daily... I thought they forgot about me by now, but just got an email from the pm stating the same as in a past letter that I have already answered... should I foresee their system is reliable? I'm just pissed that when I had absolutely nothing to do and plenty of time to learn the system they were very slow, and now that things are hectic is that I get a duplicate message that at least acknowledges that someone saw my name... Breathe in and out...

Work... When will it be an actual reality? We need it ASAP. We need at least that certainty. I need to finish the diploma to stop studying and start getting full time hands on. By now I am definitively tired of studying... I see no point. So much knowledge but no place to use it... So much talent with same dilemma...

I know... our time will come... Problem is, how long... The wait is destroying will, patience and hope.